I forgot to turn my alarm on this morning. I really needed to run. I will have to get it done this afternoon. Instead of running, I did the workout that Jackie gave us on Friday. It was easier to do today, still not as tough as I thought it would be but it is only the first week. Still like what she's giving us. She emailed me last night offering a nutritional analysis. I jumped on it and I can't wait to meet with her tomorrow.

I'm having mental struggle. I haven't talked about it but I think that I finally know what's going on. When I received lifetime, it felt like an ending. It felt like I reached my destination. As a result, I've checked out. Mentally I'm just not where I need to be. Today is the day. I'm hitting it hard. I'm staying within my points. I'm not going to use my activity points.
This is not the end. I have not reached my destination. I am still on the journey. I'm still trying to lose. I'm not done. I'm pushing to 100 pounds. When I run my marathon I want to be there. Fifteen pounds in 6 months. So done.

I know I keep adding goals and some feel a little scattered. I guess I'm not adding I just keeping hashing them out in my mind.

I'm going to put my lifetime card in my wallet. I'm going to get it out of my head. The only thing that gives me is free access. Nothing else. The push is still happening. I'm still going to lose. I starting today. I can do anything today!