Emotions. I look at yesterday's post and it's positive and proud. Today I'm discouraged and tired of being consumed by "The Number". I'm tired of doing what I'm doing. I frustrated. I hate food. I hate thinking about food. I hate cooking it and wondering who will eat it and who will complain. I'm tired of worrying about the number moving on the scale and lately it's just moving up. I'm tracking. Am I staying within my 27 points? No - I'm at 29 or 30 most days. Is that the difference? I run everyday. I have more than enough activity points. I also have my point's plus allowance to use. I'm hungry. As I run more or as I work out more, I'm hungrier. I am trying to use my points towards protein. I'm on day 3 of no treats. I'm also on day 2 of my period. LIGHT BULB! Sorry you had to read all of this for me to figure it out here. Hormones. Hormones. I need to stop ranting and complaining. I need to go clean my house and do the laundry. My hormones will even out.

One thing I've been thinking about to is my spiritual self. I spend an hour and a half a day on the physical me. How much time do I spend on my spirit? Is it stronger? Is it getting a workout?

This scripture keeps coming to my head this morning, Alma 5:14

14 And now behold, I ask of you, my brethren of the church, have ye ^aspiritually been ^bborn of God? Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty ^cchange in your hearts?

15 Do ye exercise faith in the redemption of him who ^acreated you? Do you look forward with an eye of faith, and view this mortal body raised in immortality, and this corruption ^braised in incorruption, to stand before God to be ^cjudged according to the deeds which have been done in the mortal body?

16 I say unto you, can you imagine to yourselves that ye hear the voice of the Lord, saying unto you, in that day: Come unto me ye ^ablessed, for behold, your works have been the works of righteousness upon the face of the earth?

This has always been one of my favorites. It makes me think. I know I can do better. I have to - my physical self is good. I'm in a good place. My spiritual self needs to get moving. I need to find time for my scriptures. I need to go to the temple and have some calmness in my life. I need to improve spiritually. I feel good. I feel calm. This is my answer and my focus. Spiritual me. I'm off to get the necessities done and then get my scriptures and journal done.