Fifteen months ago when I was in the hospital just after the birth of my little girl, I felt like I should have another baby. For fifteen months, I've been fighting off this feeling. I keep telling myself that she would be a great last baby. Then I remember that feeling in the hospital - how strong that feeling was. That feeling is back. I'm being very selfish. I'm not were I want to be. I want to run a race in October. I want to lose another 40 pounds. Okay - 2o pounds would make me happy. I've worked so hard to get where I am. I can run 6.5 miles. When in my life have I been able to say that? I know it will go away so quickly if I don't keep running. At the same time, I know that there is a little spirit in Heaven waiting to come to our family. Each pregnancy for me has been great. No morning sickness, only tired and sciatic nerve issues. I could maintain an active life since I'm fairly active now. Each of my children were very slow to come. It took us over a year to conceive each and my little girl we tried for over two years. I guess that's the answer - do what I'm supposed to do. Run and run - lose what I need to lose. At the same time, work on a baby. That sounds like a plan. I can do it. My life, my eating, my activity is different now. I can lose what I need to - if it takes me a year to conceive - I could hit lifetime by then. Thanks for the listening ear - I needed to get this out.
Distance: 2.57 miles Time: 29:59 Pace: 11'37" Calories: 421
Molly, I was just having this fight with myself this morning. I think I am too old for another, and Nate definitely thinks he is too old, but I can't fight the feeling. I have known since Jayci was born there was one more.
ReplyDeleteBonus though, you can run the whole time you're pregnant, but you may only feel up to it the first six months or so. I ran off and on my entire last pregnancy. The last two, I mostly walked (fast), but every once in awhile I ran. I biked the entire time. Then you can walk. Lifting is also great when pregnant. I lost weight when I was pregnant with my fourth by "speed" walking. (Actually, I only gained 8 lbs, and he weighed almost 9. Within a few weeks, I was down about 15 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight.) You can be pregnant, and end up better off then when you started. As long as you eat healthy and exercise regularly, you will be fine. Who knows, maybe having this baby will give you more motivation to eat healthy and exercise while your pregnant. It did me.