A few snippets of thought have entered my mind since last night.

Number one - fix my hip. I love running. I do. It's my out. It's not just a tool for weight loss. It gives me confidence. Get to the doctor and figure out the hip.

Number two - Mental - what is driving my weight loss? Who's in control here? Me? I would like to think so but I'm not. I weigh myself morning and night. EVERYDAY. I'm done with the scale. I will weigh at my meeting. I'm letting the scale tell me what I can eat, when I can eat, if I should run, if I should sleep in - Good bye scale.

Number three - the big picture - Am I just aiming for a number? What happens when I get to this number? Carrying a stupid candy bar around for 5 hours told me something. I'm a different person. I didn't eat it as soon as I got out of the store and into the car. I put the groceries in the car, had some grapes (unwashed - gag) drove home and put groceries away. I'm different. I'm not the same person I was almost one year ago. Isn't that what's important? My life style is different. I'm different. Am I where I want to be? Obviously not - I still bought the candy bar. LOL!

Where am I going with all this? I'm at a different stage in my weight loss. I don't know the name of this stage yet. Do people usually quit before this stage? I feel like I'm entering uncharted waters. I usually quit before this stage -- that's why it's new. LIGHT BULB!!!!

What is next? It's not going to come from all of your wonderful blogs or from a google search. It's not going to come from a book or a peer.

It's got to come from me. From within. I've got to figure out the next stage - I want it to end in success. How will I measure success? What will it look like? What will I look like? Where is the next stage of this journey going to take me?