It is warm and muggy outside. A lot different than yesterday. Not bad though - nothing that makes you sweat could be bad. I'm pretty sure I burned more calories - LOL.

Last night as I went to bed I was trying to figure out which way I wanted to run and this morningI was actually excited to run. It's a new feeling to have. I've never been excited to run before.

This Saturday is my first ever 5K. I'm excited for this too. I'm a little nervous. I've never done anything like this. Will I know where to pickup my packet? Will I know how to use the chip? Do I eat before the run? How much do I drink? Kind of silly things to worry about.

I will do fine. I know. I just know. I can't wait to see my husband and kids at the finish. That's what I'm most excited for. Well, now that I've sat here and I'm getting stiff...

Distance 3.4509, Time 40:06 -- 11.6 minutes per mile. A little slower than Monday - not much. Here's to a great and productive day!

Wait, I'm not done. Last night I was at a meeting with my friends. People who I've known for years. Played with, gone to dinner with, BBQed with, cried with. They are all very active. After the meeting my friend who runs all the time asked about a knee problems that just started. I don't know how to get specific without getting long winded. Basically, it was a very closed conversation. One about running. One that a 229 lbs runner was not part of, invited into or even recognized when something was uttered. It bothered me. Maybe I'm not what I think I am. Am I just a fat chick jogging down the road, sweating and huffing. I wonder sometimes. Why? Why does self doubt creep in? Where does it come from?

I am confident in many aspects of my life. I need to dig around and remember all of the successes that I have had the past six months. I am 30 pounds lighter. I couldn't run for a minutes and a half 2 months ago. Now I can run over 3 miles. I couldn't walk away from a good burger in January. Doritos were my friend. Today - I can walk away. I am learning and making life changes. I am doing something about my situation. One day, I will be a 170 lb runner! With a life style that encourages activity. I will hike the G and keep up with my son who made it so quickly!

I will. Why? It's simple -- I CAN DO HARD THINGS!!!