So this past week has been a joke. I was up 1 pound at my last weigh in and mentally I checked out. I was frustrated. I was tired of trying to be perfect. I was tired of running, and shredding and not seeing any progress. I probably gained 4 pounds over that 1 pound gain. I've been trying to mentally wrap my head around where I am. This is tough. I've never been here before - well I haven't been here in this decade.
Here's somethings I'm dealing with in my head.
1. Holiday goals - I made a goal last week - it just never felt right. I hate using a number. After I 3 hour car ride - alone & thinking - I've got a new goal. I am going to set an activity goal. I'm going to run 15 miles a week and do my new Jillian workout on Tues and Thursday. Tracking - always big. I'm going to track everything.

2. Compliments. I seem to be getting a lot of compliments. I'm seeing quite a few people who haven't seen me in a while and I must look different. Compliments feel good but they seem to tell my mind that it's okay to take a break. It's not. File compliment some where else.

I'm still not mentally where I need to be for the holidays. I've got to get it together before I get nailed and go back to some old ways. It's a new holiday season --- let's get it right!