I slept in a little.  It felt good.  I did get to the gym by 6:15 and ran 4 miles.  I'm really trying hard to stay on schedule and not skip any run.  My legs are a little tight.  I need to go stretch really good and get everything loosened up.  I might even get out the foam roller and roll everything really good.  Physically, I feel like I'm in a good place.  Running and working out feels good.  I love doing it. 

Mentally.  The struggle continues.  I'm really wondering if I just need to recommit to Weight Watchers.  I feel rejuvenated and ready to go after a meeting.  At the same time I feel so committed to get back to my goal weight, so much pressure because I'm not there and I should be.  I should be!  I'm working my butt off.  I'm frustrated to be working so hard and not seeing results.  I'm tired of one sugary treat throwing me off and watching the pounds stack back up.  Mentally -- I'm not in a good place.  I'm close to tears when I think about what I need to do.  I'm confused.  I really hate food and at the same time love it.  I'm in a terrible cycle and I don't know how to take care of everything.  Do I focus carbs?  Sugar?  Protein?  Calories?  Why is this so hard?  I should know exactly what to do.  I'm frustrated with shopping for food.  Trying to feed my family what's good for us and dealing the the pickiest of eaters.  Food is so expensive and disappears so quickly.  Ahhhhh.  I think I'm done.  The rant is over.  I feel lighter.  Mentally I'm in a negative place.  How do I refocus and dwell on the positive? 

The answer is the same as its always been.  I need to be spiritually fit.  Scriptures and prayer.  Daily.  Just like my body needs the work so does my spirit.  It needs fed and nourished and strengthened.  Daily. 

Will everything magically fall in place when I'm on the right track spiritually?  Probably not but I will have a better outlook on life and everything just seems smoother.

"And now behold, I ask of you my brethern of the church, have ye spiritually been born of God?  Have ye received his image in your countenances?  Have ye experienced this mighty change in your heart?

Do ye exercise faith in the redemption of him who created you?  Do you look forward with an eye of faith, and view this mortal body raised in immortality, and this corruption, to stand before God to be judged according to the deeds which have been done in the mortal body?" Alma 5:14-15