I've been thinking a lot lately about my weight, lack of exercise, poor food choices and just life in general.  I can't believe how the lack of movement makes me feel.  I've got an issue with my back.  It hurts.  It hurts all the time.  I don't do any lifting.  I've very careful about my movements.  Funny thing - when I run it hurts less.  When I stretch and use the foam roller it hurts less.  Why isn't my brain processing this?  Why can't I tell myself that running and strength training are really what my body wants and needs.
I've been trying to decide what I can think or do to make my brain CLICK.  Click onto to loving exercise.  Click on to making good food choices.  What is it that helps with these decisions?  Is it one decision that does it?
Today I came to this realization.  It's NOT one single decision.  It several decision.  So many small choices that may seems minor, but that build and build to create confidence.  Decisions that build to create a burning desire to be healthy and active.  I've been looking for the wrong thing.  I need to start making all the small choices COUNT.  It all adds up, for good or bad.
If I want to be successfull in reaching the activity level that makes me feel great - I've got to start making the right choices work for me.  I need to go to bed earlier.  I used to LOVE getting up early.  Now my body just wants sleep.  My phone needs to be charged in another location at night.  I spend too much time on my phone.  I need to lay my clothes out at night so that I'm ready.  I need to plan my eating for the day and track each item I eat.  I've so much to think about.  It will happen.  I just reread some of my posts.  I did it before, I can do it again!  I WILL.