Mental Workout

I'm tracking, I'm still doing Weight Watchers.  I just keep fighting myself.  I have no desire to workout because I don't see results in the scale. 
Sugar is my demon and I don't have an answer.  I try daily to go without it and cave in the afternoon and in the evenings.
It's frustrating.
In the meantime, I just watch the numbers on the scale increase. 
Running is hard.  I'm too heavy.  I still love it.  It still feels great.  It's just a lot of work.
Yes, this is a negative post.  Sorry. 
This is all such a mental game.